Suck It Up

This is my (not entirely) last goodbye.

2010-03-31T22:52:00.003+08:00

I'm leaving this virtual space to enter a new chapter. Good luck seeking me.

So long.

Just walk away.

2010-03-24T10:30:00.001+08:00

I realised that it starts & ends at 7.00 pm.

Don't cry.

2010-03-21T20:00:00.000+08:00

I know most people find it shocking. Still, reality bites & the pain is real. I find it hard to believe it myself but, it really happened & it happens for a reason.

Chased by a cat.

2010-03-19T12:04:00.002+08:00

I ran from a cat yesterday. It was nice. (:

Malaysia boleh.

2010-03-11T10:33:00.000+08:00

Can't wait for Malaysia with family this Saturday. At least something to get my mind off things. (:

Here we go again.

2010-03-03T10:31:00.002+08:00

Just as I thought. No matter what happens, it'll always end up like this. Life is a cycle. So is everything else. You can never guarantee that things are going to go your way. Whatever it is, im'a stay put and pray for the best.

& if things remains how it is now, than i'm sorry, i'm done. I couldn't stay strong for too long.

I wish I could.
& I wish you'd change.

I love it when Aang glows.

2010-03-01T10:17:00.004+08:00

I'm waiting impatiently for this. :/

Busy Bee.

2010-02-25T14:17:00.004+08:00

There's soo many things i'm dying to do but just didnt have the time.

Firstly, i'm soo dying to jog again cause I feel like I need to keep myself fit since i've been chugging down cans of coke everyday. Everytime I pass by the stadium, I hear it calling me. Pssh. Haha dramatic pe Shaf. :d but serious lah, I was always tempted. Sigh.

Secondly, I need to relive back my old routine of having only one meal per day cause I gnikcuf gained weight. Cb.

Last & most importantly, I felt that I need to sort out my life & choose what's best for me. I'm sick of not knowing what I want in life & always getting confused. It's tiring.

Stranger.

2010-02-19T16:06:00.001+08:00

I see a stranger in the mirror. & all i wanted to do was smash it to smithereens.

Change is good.

2010-01-22T11:33:00.003+08:00

Note to self: Be more like me & less like others.

We don't change overnight.

My bad.

2009-12-23T12:49:00.000+08:00

It's not you, it's me.
It has always been me.

Sweetest argument in the history of arguments.

2009-10-02T18:32:00.005+08:00

Me: Diyamma byk songeh plak.
BF: Ok i diam
After 2 minutes...
BF: Tk jadi ah..i nk ckp,i love u b

Sumpah aku tersenyum sendiri. :D

Weekends on young & angry street.

2009-10-01T19:00:00.004+08:00

I was supposed to go shopping with bestfriend last friday but I paitao (like, first time seriously tk tipu) cause of menses. If those who know me well, i'm the sort who'll curl up like a ball throughout the whole day on my bed while watching tv till I sleep myself dead. LOL. So yup, never ask me out on my 1st day of menses. I'll turn down flat.

Saturday's plan was also tergendala so boyfriend & me just slacked near my place since I don't wish to go anywhere far. He than sent me home around 11.55PM, changed & lepak for awhile. Soon after, the guys felt hungry & we went to my place to eat. Boyfriend was angry for the fact that I brought guys home but it's not like i'm the only girl but itskeh, I promise tk buat lagi eh. After makan, we went down again, lepak lagi till around 3 plus in the morning & head home.

Sunday was raya outing with my workmates. We rented a van & visited more than 10 houses. Shocking thing is that I still dapat collection. Best lah sgt. Hehe. Adv. of being short jgn cemburu pls. Halfway through, my mood went down cause I was asked to work the next day. Baru je nk rehat. Dots. But terpaksa lah since I need the money anyway. Penat doh.

Selamat Hari Raya.

2009-09-21T18:50:00.008+08:00

Oh wow. I've this mixed feelings in me. Mostly good feelings. I'm like soo happy out of a sudden. :D

So, two days before Syawal, I went down to geylang with my lepak friends & met up with bestfriend's adik saudara. Initially bestfriend & azhar wanted to buy kasut raya & baju raya respectively but ended up not buying anything cause for one, he's super cerewet & there's no shoe size for bestfriend. While walking around, it suddenly strucked me that I wanted to get a henna design. So got it with bestfriend but with different designs. Her's is nicer though. Tk kisah. Haha. We than bought dengdeng like who doesn't, sat somewhere, ate, kill mosquitoes & decided to take one last round before heading down to bugis since geylang is getting on our last nerves.

So our plan was to L4D (like duh) but we took sahur first since we wouldn't want to rush later. & I finally got to take the helicopter, moved on to second level, took the boat & now im at level 3 when 2 hours struck. Sorry eh krg. Jgn jealous pls. To Azhar & Ken, in your faeces. Oops i mean faces. Aku ace dari krg. Tu ah, ejek aku tk dpt naik helicopter lagi. (One of the reasons why i'm elated. Refer to paragraph 1 if you're not lazy)

We than took the first bus & slept at bestfriend's house since her parent's are not around. Woke up in the afternoon, head back home to bathe & bring food for bestfriend, her sister & her adik saudara for buka & head down to Jurong Point after that. We than lepak till 6ish in the morning. Ah bagus. Org mlm raya tlg kemas rumah, kita mlm raya robohkan rumah. Punyalah bising. Heh.

So first day of raya, same like any other year we head down to aunty's house since everyone of our relatives gather there. Nothing much.

& last but not least, here's to everyone I know, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, maaf zahir dan batin. Jikalau terkasar bahasa atau tersinggung perasaan dgn secara tidak sengaja atau sengaja, harap dimaafkan lah yer. Have a great celebration!

On a totally sidetracked note:
Boyfriend texted me this on 19/09/2009 at 8.17PM

"B,1 hr ago,u tau kn wat happen 2 yrs ago?"

Oh & just so krg tgh wonder feeling what happened, it was the very 1st time we set our eyes on each other. In other words, our very 1st date lah. Hehe. Omg! He freaking remembered! Siap exact timing lagi! Alamak how sweet is my boyfriend?!! Sweet kan! (One of the reasons why i'm soo happy right now) Hee. Sayang neh Shaf kat dia. XD

Highlight 22nd.

2009-09-15T17:14:00.003+08:00

Saturday was one awesome night. We had this SB/SL dinner gathering at Newton & so kecoh lah tlg. After dinner we than headed down to Esplanade, lepak till around 10-ish & went our separate ways.

I than met bestfriend, Azhar, Ken & Syamir at Somerset for Final Destination 4 3D at Orchard. Thank you bestfriend for the treat. Hehe. After movie, we had this dilemma on whether to shisha or L4D. Ended up with gaming since we do not wish to waste anymore money. Found out at idk where, played till 5.00AM, ate meggi mangkuk for sahur & took the first bus home. Damn shagged or what. Slept through Sunday afternoon & lepak with them after buka.

Yesterday pulak, went to meet boyfriend at Clementi since Shaf was craving for Pondok Abang's Nasi Ayam Penyet. We than had L4D in conjuction of our belated 22nd. Ah bagus. Celebrate monthly anniversary by playing L4D. Haha. After an hour of L4D-ing, we than head back to my hometown, lepak sekejap & he sent me home.

& yesterday itself, I realised how much he still loves me. (:

Hot slayers.

2009-09-11T01:27:00.004+08:00

So I just got back from lepak. It's been months since we last contacted each other & finally things are back to the old days. What I did yesterday was movie with bestfriend, Azhar & Ken. It was a last minute plan actually. I was lazying at home when bestfriend called around 9.00PM to meet them for movie at Jurong Point by 9.45PM. & lucky shit I wasn't late like how I usually am. We watched Gamer. The show i've been dying to watch. Gerek lah sey but hardcore shit or what. Heh. What do you expect from an M18 rated movie. I even had to flash my IC. Bagusss.

After that we went back via taxi & the three of us alighted around the huge drain next to Jurong Infantry Camp except Azhar cause he needed to go back to camp. Kesiannn. Ken than wanted to eat so we bought food & ate at the void deck till around 1.00AM. Just like good old times. (:

Days well spent.

2009-09-09T01:19:00.003+08:00

Last few days was awesome. Thon for two days & my head hurts after that but it was so worth it. Here goes my lengthy post. Leave if you must. Heh.

I decided to celebrate my bestfriend's birthday since she had done a lot for me & to me, this would be the best time to repay her kindness. So I treated her to Swensens at IMM & gave her a clutch for a present since she wants' one. We than headed down to town where we catched G-Force (my treat as well). It starts at 1.30AM so we decided to L4D since it was only like 10-ish to 11.00PM. Darn it's been so long since I last played that game. Good thing I wasn't rusty though. Fun lah tlg! Heh. After the movies, we head down to Clarke Quay to check out the scene. Scaaary shit or what. Head home via first bus.

While I was sleeping till around 3 in the afternoon, Sri called saying the workmates ajak buka together at Geylang. & omg, stuffy lah tlg with the peoples I hate to see. But still it was worthwhile cause you know why... the guys decided shisha next. Siapa tknk oiii. So shisha sampai mampos till around 2.00AM & that's when I decide L4D. Yes I know. Tk serik-serik sey Shaf. Haha. & luckily we found one gaming cafe that's operating 24/7. Apa lagi. Hentam ah. It started with one hour at first but ended up till two. All in all, we finished around 5.00AM, had sahur & took the first train home. Had a good rest on Sunday.

On Monday, Hani called to buka together with Anees. Shaf apa lagi, dengar nama Anees je, okeh go punya. Apa tk, it's been months since I last saw her & I missed her so much. So we went down to Little India since Anees is working there. Had cheese naan & head down to bugis after that since Hani wanted a new wallet. It was fun.

& NOW, I can't decide whether to buy L4D now or wait till L4D2 comes out this November. I can't wait that looong. How? /:

Run for your life.

2009-08-30T20:05:00.004+08:00

Yeh yeh yehs! I'm so glad it came. It finally gnikcuf came! & no, i'm not glad that I don't need to fast but i'm elated that aft 6> days I can finally jog w/o the cramps & the craps that comes with it. It's been long enough since i last jogged. & this would be the best time cause I know (& I bet most of you agree) that this is that time of the year where you could lose weight in a jiff.

Wake up call.

2009-08-28T14:59:00.003+08:00

One of the things I like about this particular phase is when boyfriend wakes me up for sahur. It's these little things that matter. (;

I love panda bears!

2009-08-26T17:26:00.004+08:00

I've been searching for Trail Of The Panda via youtube but to no avail. I want to weep but it's bulan Ramadhan. So upsetting lah tlg.

Bulan yang amat mulia.

2009-08-23T22:52:00.005+08:00

My first day of Ramadhan was well spent at Johor with my workmates. Though people have been saying we should usually break-fast with our family on the first day. Oh well, there's a first time for everything. (;

& I mean everything.

Lost & never found.

2009-08-21T23:55:00.001+08:00

My vulnerable heart just shattered. & please, just mind your own business cause you'll never know what it's like to walk in my shoes.

I hate this game.

BFF.

2009-08-20T23:45:00.004+08:00

Shoot. I can't believe i'm sick right now. Well, at least a visit from my bestfriend cheered me up. Thank you so much girl. I appreciate you forcing me to eat, buying coca-cola for me & trying to cheer me up with your nonsence. I love you! (Besides my boyfriend keh?) (:

1 year 9 months.

2009-08-12T15:38:00.002+08:00

Happy 21st dearest! ♥

Little Miss Pissy.

2009-08-11T00:26:00.000+08:00

You've got me hating.

Guess whose back.

2009-07-12T12:44:00.002+08:00

BF. Date. Date. More dates. BFF day out. Orchard. Transformers. L4D. Lunch Treats. Sleepovers. Workmates. Escape Theme Park. Shisha. Bowling. Lepaks. Thon. Work. Pastamania. 4D Magix. Sentosa. Henderson Waves. Clarke Quay.

Now that's the life. (:

Gtg get ready & date my BF.
Happy 20 months you. <3